An Artist's Wife

That is the third time this week you have said that Clancy laughs. I am excited these days, so excited I could puke actually, with how well all the ducks are lining up. The time is close for us to move out of Toronto and to the country. We have been working towards this dream for a few years now. I did not think we would have it for at least two more years. But it seems the time is much closer, it started innocently enough. Clancy finally gave in and told me I can have a dog. I have always had dogs, he never has had one of his own, and he feels ready now. So I wanted to make sure this was a good experience for him. We gave it a great deal of thought and have done a lot of research the last couple of months. (Cesar Millan is our new hero). After all this research we have decided that a Great Dane is the perfect dog for us. I did not want to start him with a puppy so; we talked and decided to register with Danes in Distress. We are now on their list to be adoptees. A Dane’s traits suit u...

Sometimes Clancy will ask me why I love him. He can be so moody, he is afraid these moods will eventually push me away and I will grow bored of him. I just smile, how could I possibly grow bored of the most original person I have ever met? “That terrible mood of depression of whether it's any good or not is what is known as The Artist's Reward.” Ernest Hemingway I remember when we were first dating we watched Ed Norris in Pollock. I wondered as I watched if I could be an artist’s wife. Would Clancy lock himself in a room for days on end, would he become a man I barely recognized in the end? Is this why he wanted me to watch the movie? Did he want to make sure I was prepared for the life of an artist’s wife? “It is only too true that a lot of artists are mentally ill- it's a life which, to put it mildly, makes one an outsider. I'm all right when I completely immerse myself in work, but I'll always remain half crazy.” Vincent van Gogh In the end I think the lesson he ...

I am fortunate to share my world with Clancy. He found me not long after I had started life on my own at 40. Since then he has filled my world with art, laughter, creativity and music. This is a place for me to share Clancy with anyone that might just wander by.